my life isn’t that bad. not anymore at least. I was raped by someone very close to me. almost every night in 4th grade. other than that, i dont know whats wrong with me. yeah, i get bullied. but not to my face. maybe that makes it hurt more. i know my family and boyfriend love me. but i cant stop thinking and planning my death. im giving myself a month. a month to see if things ever actually do get better. ive been depressed since sixth grade. cutting used to help, but it doesnt anymore. i dont have any escape from my mind. im so tired. and i feel so alone. i know i need help but part of me doesnt want it. my brain is so messed up with all these horrible thoughts. does anyone know what im going through or if it gets better? please. i want to be happy. right now all i can think about is killing myself. its been like this for months and i dont know how else to stop it. i want to give in.
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I understand wanting to die very much. I understand how just existing is painful.. I would never belittle your feelings by saying its your age but the teenage years suck ass!!! Whoever said its the best time of your life is full of shit. I cant promise you life will be better after highschool but I can tell you that if you give in now you will never know. You are so young and have so much infront of you. My depression didnt get better after highschool, i still deal with it all day everyday but my friends did. She found her footing nd got up dusted herself and is living successfully and happily. Dont give up yet… Not when you have so many what ifs… I wish I had more than just words and could stop your pain but I cant. I can tell you that you arent alone and at your age you havent even begun to tap into your potential. Sorry if this sounds cliche but it is from the heart i promise
thank you. it helps to know im not alone with my thoughts.
your not alone . please , im begging just hold on ! 🙁
I would have to think that the truma that you are dealing with is coming out in this manner.
Are you in therapy?? I would think you SHOULD be.