I probably don’t seem like I’m going through a lot but to me, I am. Ever since I was a kid i was really emotional, I may have acted sooo tough. But in reality the most littlest things hurt me. I’m a girl btw, and I was one fat ugly girl when i was young. I was always hated ever since I was 6. Everybody in every school I went to always hated me. For some reason and i swear to God i was soo nice and I didn’t talk much,  I still remember I use to have this little doll my cousin made me, and I use to cry into it at least every school night, and I barely had friends. Until grade 7 that’s when people finally noticed me. But it wasn’t the people that was the problem, it was inside my house, my parents always put me down, in my culture a girl has to be perfect at cleaning through out her whole life. So my mom started training me when I was 7. I remember I use to was the dishes mop the hallways do the beds, clean the living room, it was fun at first,until my mom would yell at me and call me a stupid child and start saying why I was born, and complain about how useless I am. As a child that was probably the worst thing you can hear, especially if at school you already knew you had no friends and always hung by yourself at the corners of the playground. I never really had a childhood, I never left the house and played at the park, I never watched cartoons and ate popcorn or something, I never did any of that, and that’s what hurts me even now a days. But back to where I was, in grade 7 I started to make more friends, and started to enjoy the company I got. Unfortunately it lasted only a year and than I moved. I moved to a middle school near my area in grade 8. Where I met the whore of the school and become good friends with her, and because I was friends with a whore and i didn;t knwo she was a whore, people started to consider me a whore. I didn’t understand why. This one guy who thought I liked him started sending people to tell me I’m fucking ugly and I can never be with him, like i said I’m very sensitive and quit emotional so that got to me a lot. Time passed and things started getting worse at home and at school all the 8th graders talked crap about me, I was the topic all day everyday, a bad topic the ugly fat hoe.
After a hell of a horrible middle school I was finally a freshmen in highschool, things went smooth i met new people and old people, it was a great year. Except the part when I went home, my mom kept going crazy for the littlest things she blamed me for everything since I am the oldest, and she doesn’t appreciate anything I do from cleaning to school work. I fucking hate it. I’m liek the target in the house any little thing went wrong everybody rages it all on me. Now It’s the summer before I go to grade 10 and my mom kicked m out of the house because I didn’t clean the beds. I know it may seem funny but it was really depressing. I just fucking hate my life, I hate being a girl, I don’t understand why everything hates me :'(
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Oh my. What ethnicity are you? Why hate being a girl? Females bring life into this world…guys just lie, cheat, steal, make war ect haha im a guy XD Um…thats a fucked up reason for being kicked out. Friends? its always hard making good friends..try making friends on here…everyone here is good people even the ones that can be rude haha…an no everything doesnt hate you.
I too hate being a girl.. Hate being Pampered by My Parents like Anything!! Hell with it!! I don’t Think Everything hates you.. Friends are the Best Part! Try making good friends! And Live a life with them!!
Good Luck!
My heart goes out to you cleopatra_97. You’ve had a rotten time. I’m guessing you’re about 14, as you put 97 on your user name?
It most definitely seems to me that you ARE and have been, going through more than any young teenager should have to. I would never dismiss it in any way. Your Mum sounds a bit abusive. Kicking you out for not cleaning the beds, what’s that about? All those chores at such a young age, and being singled out as a girl. Being blamed, the scapegoat when things go wrong. Then there were the difficulties at school.
You’ve got a lot on your plate cleopatra_97. But school seemed to get dramatically better last year. You had friends to hang with. Hopefully you can look forward to another good year, and be happy for at least part of your day.
At school girls are not, these days, generally told that all they are fit for is endless cleaning and chores and training to be wives and mothers later on. You will find teachers who are good role models and can guide you toward the right subjects for you to study, hopefully. They will encourage you to show ambition for your future.
Maybe your mum is bitter that she’s been restricted to the traditional female role and is taking out her frustration on you. I hope and trust that you will NOT be similarly restricted and can look forward to the opportunities that lie ahead.
Bless you cleopatra_97.
Zoe x