“Everything’s gonna be okay”, I soothe myself.
I calm myself down
Say I just have to give it time
I convince myself that all scars heal
I wipe away a teardrop
It’s a black teardrop
I think that I’ve lost hope
I don’t know yet
I say it’s okay
“Tomorrow will be better” I tell myself
Only this time,
I choose not to believe my lies anymore
I choose not to get back up, for now
I feel tackled
I feel cold
I feel defeated
As I watch my black tear drops fall
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Too much mascara
hahahaha actually I was going to post “(PS: I’m not wearing Mascara)”
Are you really crying. Dry your tears and take a deep breath. Pull yourself together and say ‘I am a winner, and I’m not going to cry anymore’
Thanx duke. But I actually like to cry. I don’t want to cut myself because I don’t think i could live with wearing long sleeves its like 125 degrees here. lol. But yeah I either cry or faint. I stopped crying now. And thanx again <3
“I am a winner” ? Nah .. I don’t think so. Actually .. I’m invincible B-)
That’s ok. You will see from my post, I’m literally incapable of crying. Unless, someone someone stamps on my foot, then I have been known to blubber like a baby.
*Puts a lego where you’re about to step*
@bluehappiness-i winced reading that
about the lego
@birthright hahaha ! Yep … As my friend used to say, “There are 3 types of pain. A) Regular Pain. B) Excruciating pain C) Stepping on a Lego” < LOL !
I stopped playing with Lego last year. My mum said I was too old and confiscated it.
Lol why ? How old are you? I’m guessing 16? 17?
haha i still have boxes of lego :3 funnest thing
28
Oh … Lol so I’m half your age 0.0! I’ve always wanted to be in my 20’s :/
@birthright yes ! lol I love them too o.o .. I sometimes steal my little cousin’s 😡 hahahaha I’m such a kid :/
Doesn’t anyone ever read my posts. I thought you would know me like a distant relative by now.
Your not half my age and FYI 28 isn’t old and I only just turned 28.
Duuuuukkeeee !!! LOL I never said that 28 is old ! And I’m sorry I didn’t read any old posts. I dont know how to go to a person’s profile and check their posts. Can I give me a link to your profile? *Curious face*
Can you give me** Sorry bout that. And I’m only 14 :c
aw poor duke has a complex bout his age 😉 haha just joking
@birthright LOL that’s not funny :O :X Stop teasing him ^_^
I deleted all my old posts when I tried to leave. All my worldly knowledge and the wisdom I bestowed is lost forever. If your that interested you can see my recent posts. There’s one on the dashboard called ‘before I die I want to…’ and you can click on my username at the top.
I’ve really only been posting recently out of boredom, lonliness and having no one to talk to.
Duke I’m going to email you. Ok?
Ok
No, it’s not ok because that’s a fake email address. I used to use my real one but changed it because I was afraid that random girls would start stalking me. Then I got desperate and changed it back. But now I just keep the fake one because like an idiot I used my real name.
Awwww 🙁 I really wanted to talk to you :/ Oh well ._. I used my real name too … Anyways, I’m kind of busy now. Be back in about an hour.
Duke I just read your posts. Wish you haven’t deleted the older ones :c
Ah, your not missing much.
I hope not. I don’t know your story but I can say that you’re going/went through a lot. I’m here if you want to talk to me. My email’s right up in bio ^_^
I’m not much of a conversationalist. Plus I’m a bad influence.
Well .. okay. Do whatever feels right. And haha then i’m a “badder” influence