Falling and Broken

Every day I wake up without the woman I love next to me in bed. She left my bed because of some slight that she will not talk to me about. I work hard to supply our family with a good life but it never seems e-nuff for her. We have not made love in almost a year now. She can not work because she has hurt herself at work that was three years ago. So I take on all the overtime to make up the money she does not bring in any more. Then she hit’s me with we owe 40G’s in back tax’s on the house that we live in because she did not pay them for years because her ex left and she expected him to pay them. Everyday it becomes harder to deal with this. I wake up and go to sleep alone and she gets angry when I take on more overtime to help pay the Bill’s. Every time I speak I feel like I am wrong and it wears down on me. I am consider a gaint of a man at 6 foot 5 and 350 pounds and people always come to me when they need there problems fixed. They never look beyond what they need. I give the world the image that nothing bother’s me or phases me that I am the rock. I want to say something to people but it was beat into me as a child that if you show weakness is unacceptable and I can’t bring myself to say anything. I feel like I am falling and I can feel the end coming. It hurts so much that people don’t see the pain and confusion the spins with in me. My spirit is crumbling everyday more and more. I see nothing good coming on the storm front . I know when she ends it I will walk away and live my life alone. I will not seek to be with someone again because my heart can not take it again. I have had to many women break my heart but I always fain the mask of indifference except I now I will never let it dawn this time. I see myself giving up and looking for an end and I don’t know what to do.