I have a friend, my best friend.. Â we have been friends since kinder garden, we were always there for each other.. no matter what.. and that is great and all, but i feel like i don’t deserve that friend. Because a couple og months ago i was at a party having a good time and all, then this really hot girl walks up to me and we start talking, everything is fine we start making out we walk to a bed room start undressing, and right before we are gonna do it my fried enters the room.. and he sees me with the girl and i was so drunk that i didnt realice that girl was the girl he was in love with.. so he saw me right in the eyes and i didnt see anything is those eyes they were full of hate and he just walked out… so i pushed the girl away got my jeans and ran after him.. when i finally caught up with him i said sorry, then i he just said: Don’t even bother.. and when i walk dont even call me.. and our freidship is over.
so i stood there crying like a baby, when the girl i almost had sex with came up to me and said: dont care about him, he is a douchbag an you should not be friend with him. then i look at her and said: he was my best friend! you whore. and i punched her in the face and ran of.. i ran all the way home..
i met him at the mall some days ago and when i looked at him i felt nothing.. nothing.. then he walked up to me and said: sorry for sayin that our friendship is over.
and i was totally shocked, why did he say sorry? i was the one who did a mistake.. and after that our friendship have never been the same, we are still friends but not like it was, and nobody at school likes me cause i ounched the gilr, so i dont have any friend the only thin i got is myself.. and that hurt so much, beeing nobody… so i met some new friends and the only thing i do now is drink and sleep with random girl, cause my life dont meen any thing to me any more… i cry myself to sleep everynight and i dont know what to do.
im only 16, and this is the life i live, its not fun.. so what do i do?
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Oh dear Syse. This is very sad. Of course it was a big mistake to punch the girl, or ANY girl, in the face, but I guess you were drunk and took out your feelings on her. You’re 16. That can be a very difficult age indeed. My son is also 16 and never leaves the house! At least you have some friends, even tho’ you’re not in a good space, are drinking and having meaningless sex. I guess you will learn from your mistakes.
It’s a shame about your friendship, I think the guilt you continue to feel is affecting how you relate to him. Things do change as we grow toward adulthood Syse. It’s a time of constant change and can be very tempestuous with friendships and so on. Try not to drink so much and live according who you want to be rather than letting this drag you down. There is always redemption for everyone, otherwise most of us probably wouldn’t be here. You can make a fresh start. Forgive yourself your mistakes. Learn from them. Move on. Zx
And ps, Syse, don’t for God’s sake make matters worse for yourself by failing to use protection when you have sex!! I hope I don’t need to tell you that. The last thing you need is to catch an STD or become a Dad at this stage in your life!Zx
Louise, I am going to be following you around like a puppy 🙂
I could not agree more with everything she just said. Give yourself credit for having a conscience and NOT sleeping with her. It was a mistake, but at 16, trust us, this is just a stepping stone for you. Better times are to be had. Better FRIENDS will come. Better GIRLS will come. In the meantime, you really need to stop and realize that aside from punching that girl (which honestly could have written your ticket to a felony and a VERY bad life down the line) that what happened, happened, but you can control the future. Which means what Louise said: stop the promiscuity unless you want the responsibility of a child right now with one of those random girls, and her parents who will be breathing down your neck for the next 18 years. Or how about a fun STD to kill your sex drive? Sorry, but I was a rather promiscuous teen and I was lucky to have not gotten an STD. I did, however, get pregnant, and have an abortion. At the time it was no big deal but later I suffered for it when I got married and couldn’t get pregnant. I thought for years that I gave up the only chance at a child I could ever have.
You felt badly once about someone you hurt. If you continue this behavior and get a girl pregnant, or spread disease, you’re right back where you started. I don’t want you to be frightened or pissed off because of what I’ve said here and I am not trying to preach, by any means. I’m just trying to maybe help you see what you haven’t yet because your thinking is still muddied by this incident. If you can get to that point, we’ll help you with the rest after that.