This is the question:
I wonder where it will end should it be in the neighborhood park or a diff city and state?This is my story:
I have tried to OD on drugs at 15 years old I’m 47 now. The drugs was not enough to kill me plus they pumped my stomach. The state of GA took me away from the ones who would beat me and stomp me. I was in hospital for 3-4 days then I was put in a crazy house and stayed there for 6 long months. When I did get out I was placed in a home that the state hides children’s who like me was being hurt. I lived there for 3 months cause their was no opening in the state run children’s home at the time. When they did find me a home the care was worse there cause I would get bullied to the point where I stabbed the person. I runaway from the children’s home and went to Detroit to live homeless for 3 and a half years. I joined a gang there to survive and schooling lets say 7th was my last grade I remember passing. People today laugh at me for my miss spelt words and how I use them. I do try I really do try to be as smart as others around me but street smarts I guess is better at this point. I have 2 real friends one is my room mate and other is my doggie.
I have broke 9 of the ten commandments when I kill my self I will have broke all 10. Cause how I was treated as a child made me the monster I am today. When I say monster I mean 1%ER minded person who makes his own set of rules to live by. At 21 years old I cut my wrest and had over 100 stitches and was kept in the crazy house for a few weeks. Then at 24 I took over 50 valium’s and was in the crazy house for about week.
This time it will be my last attempt I will make it and do it right.
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This is a sad story and it seems that you are defining yourself by what happened in your past.
But you have survived all these years somehow.
There’s a big difference between feeling like a monster and actually being one.
I bet there is more good in you than you are telling us.
Good luck