Hi guys,
I’m just new here at this website and for a long time I keep myself seeking things related to suicide on internet and I got really into it after my life got really sux around six years ago. (I have a really large problem that cannot be solved easily)
Nowadays I hate the major I’ve chosen (since 2005 and I still not graduated!!), my job, where I live, my routine and my completely life. I read many testimonials here today and maybe I decided to start to share what brings me down everyday and my permanent nightmare.
I don’t expect any help from you, but sharing experiences turns our owns stories more easily to comprehend in a good or bad way.
I see life in a very simply way… You just need be alive to die. Life is an interminable cycle of born, work, make money to die someday in the future for reasons you have no control. Since many years ago, our world works like that and it turned me hopeless and I unwilling. Are we made just to make money and die?? It’s very hollow!!
I chose “HollowLife” as my nick name just because I feel this way. I see no purpose of being alive with a boring and sad life.
PS: Sorry about my poor English, I speak another common latin language as my native idiom (not Spanish) and I learned English while I was living in Canada for a year in 2008.
4 comments
First of all, welcome and thanks for sharing!
Secondly… I feel you on the college thing, man. I graduated high school in ’07 and still not even halfway with college, lol. It’s definitely something that brings me down too. I say that you and I need to graduate and move on to our careers… I think that would help us both.
Thank you Jhonny!
The university is just a point that really pisses me off because I’m sure I chose the wrong major for me. My father wants me graduated. I will give my diploma for him when I achieve it, hehehe
Hollow Life, there is little I can disagree with here. Life if it’s just about surviving, working at a job you may hate just to have the ‘privilege’ of living, IS pretty hollow. People find all kinds of way to add some meaning to their lives, even if it’s dependence on a drug, alcohol etc. Having a companion for life and maybe kids does it for some people.
Helping and supporting others can really improve self-esteem and give some meaning to life. Maybe this is a way for you to go? We all have to pull together and connect as best we can to find that elusive ‘meaning’. Love Zx
Hi Louise,
I know that I wrote just a part of mi life…. I got deeply more fucked by life in 2006. I had a car accident and I was driving and I guy died. I don’t feel guilty at all because I had no intention to hit the car at the pole. But after that my life got really sux. Neither time can help me being better. I really feel fucked and I’m not appreciate being alive after this event.