Oliver, Barnabas,Isabelle,Charlotte,Matthew,Music.
the guilt if hurting my mum. the guilt of hurting everyone. (i did get past that at one point but its back again)
my promise.
my progress.
things i cant put into words, but theres just this pull inside me, to not die.
i will make it through today.i will not cut.i will not OD, i will live. i WILL. if i have to spend the whole day plotting revenge so i can stay alive i will. this day will have a point. this day will not be spent in a haze of numbness. flip if only you could buy a good life on ebay.
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you could with a million to spend lol, or not, dont seem funny. i like posts like these – reasons to live instead of die, and i think you should write a song 😉
@birthright -that sounds good. Listing the reasons to live. I myself have a pros and cons list. I hope you do tell yourself that today and you will make it through the day…
@1in7b yes i think i will, song and poetry time, also im going to paint.oh and check your email.
@zacurious-thanks 🙂
wow – nirvana was awesome :), and the celldweller one was pretty good, deftones will grow on me i can tell, thanks 🙂
The plotting revenge part is scary, my first thoughts were of Aurora Co. Revenge isn’t a good thing for any human, it is a soul sickness and it gets worse if we harm others.
I don’t know what your revenge comment meant so I just wrote what came to my mind.
@caucajun, it was written in a moment of anger, i dont ever get to the point of seriously plotting revenge. its to do with family issues. i try not to waste my time hurting others when it doesnt acc hurt them atall, they never realise what they have caused until they realise it all by themselfes.