“How can a person possiblly stay sane life? i shouldnt be complaining i know i should be happy. i have everything i would ever need, why the fuck is it so impossible to be happy.. where the fuck is the good in life? i cant see it or feel it anywhere. its all bullshit. its all just some sick fucking joke isnt it. who the fuck wants to live in a a world like this? where is god? creator of all good? there is nothing for me. i have no one. i hate myself. fuck you aileen. your just a fucken mistake. just like everyone told you before. i want to die because i know i have no one and im not needed i just cause trouble. fuck you mom. if you didnt want me then why did you keep me. you should have saved us all the trouble and have had me aborted, like you wanted. i tried to be good but im not fucken good enough and i never will be, will i? its all impossible, every thing is out of reach. fuck it.. just fuck it all im already to far in deep to stop now. bye bye”
-i failed.
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it hurts me to see everyone in pain here. its also fucking crazy, i feel like i want to help everyone, i want them to live, so why do i want to save others when i cant save myself?
howd you try to kill yourself? im not asking for a method. im innocently curious.
@Charlie, I know exactly how you feel, I want to save everyone else, but when it comes down to me, I can’t help myself or anything.
Anyways, I’m sorry for the things occuring in your life. What I see is I guess either a lack of a father or you really like him since I didn’t see anything there. Honestly, from what you’ve said I understand how you feel, well besides the having everything part, I’ve got about nothing, but you get that lost feeling that no one is there for you, and life is just throwing everything bad at you. I just look at it like…maybe if I stay alive, sort of like karma, it’ll start going my way and such. I don’t fully believe this as well, I’m just waiting to get my ticket to catch the bus, but who knows, maybe I’ll have a change of heart.
i tried drowing myself and i slit my wrists but not deep enough
When you drown yourself, or at least try, the human will to live will always overpower you and even if you don’t want to, you’ll try to get out of the water if you can.
Maybe there’s a reason you don’t cut deep, cause you think deep inside your mind there might be something out there in the world worth living for, you just don’t know what. If you keep second guessing yourself…it’s best just to wait…
maybe she really does want to die. but seeing as you tried to drown yourself you really dont. i mean some part of you wants to live. right? isnt there that little part of all of us that wants to live?
drowning yourself is probably the hardest way to die. its almost an impossible task.
@lookawayplease, if you wanna talk i put my email up on my bio if you click on my name /: i dont have very many days but i can talk to you for as long as i have.
your right my body wouldnt give in so i panicked. i kept getting second thoughts i just kept thinking about the things that could have been and things that i could have done.