After many years of trying to deal with depression on my own, I realized that enough was enough and  had to seek help before it ruins my life for good. I visited a doctor this morning, who has put me on medication and pointed me towards a councillor. I’ve been using alcohol and excessive gaming to get away from life and its demands and to shield myself from my depression, for too long. Im a talented musician, have friends and when Im in any sort of good mood, im okey to be around but the important things in my life have been suffering.
I have suffered with it for as long as I can remember but was always afraid to seek help, but I feel better that I have and hope that im on a road to some sort of recovery. Suicidal thoughts have been increasing and I dont want to hurt my loved ones, hopefully I can feel some sort of happiness and motivation in this horrid, plastic world I live in.
I just want to feel some sort of motivation to live, my only choice was to turn to medication.
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Good for you, truth is some meds can work and help, but it is not an easy road, but at least u have started, and your not the lone ranger there, that’s for sure, no shortage of humans on meds, good luck i hope u find the right meds early on in the journey, and assume you have googled all the other things to try with depression..
Thanks for the reply.
I know Im not alone, some of my closest friends have been on medication for years but I always tried to avoid it. I hope too that I find the right medication early on, as far as im aware, my doctor understood every symptom.
Psych meds are one of those things you swear you’ll never do, and then when you finally do it, you’re left wondering what you ever thought the big deal was.
That’s not to say that drugs always work. There appears to be a correlation between how depressed you are and how likely they are to help. General rule of thumb appears to be they’ll fix you up about a third of the time, they’ll help you some a third of the time, and they won’t help at all about a third of the time.
And then there are issues of whether or not it’ll keep helping over a prolonged period of time, plus the problem of side effects.
I did about a dozen (or more) drugs, and they didn’t do much good (and actually did considerable harm) to me, but I have friends for whom they were life savers. One friend, in particular, benefitted from the exact same drug that hurt me the most. Go figure.
But if I had it to do over again, I would have done fewer drugs (maybe two from each category of drug) and then stopped.