the little things

the big things that really make me resent life have just become kind of numbing. their problems are still there everyday but i guess f’ed up is the new normal for me. so now its the little things that decide to kill me or not. out of soap in the shower? kill yourself. all stocked up? you live another day. nobody answers your texts? kill yourself. get replies? you live. its a sick little game i like to play…