some know me – others do not … many think i’m funny or smart or wise and others think i’m a meddling old lecherous fool … but I think most would say that i at least try to stay positive at all costs and that i try to be helpful – whether i am or not.
but – today i’m in pain – real, physical pain – i have it every day – some days bad some days not so much … but today – seem particularly bad – don’t know why – but it is – literally breathtakingly bad.
the point to this is nothing really other than to say – i hurt too – many times we look at someone and see them as “fine’ – “healthy’ – but i’m screaming and crying on the inside today – i want to rip out my spine because it’s white hot searing pain – a lightning rod
outside i smile and calmly bend over (it’s an excruciating maneuver) to caress the dogs and they gently lick my hand or press themselves against my hand or leg.
i’m ready for work – it is going to hurt – it hurts every single fucking day – every minute – every second!
gotta go smile – “how may I help you?”
disguised dawg
Mister Boo – deceased march 2012
these two are my current foster mutts – I have 4 total at the moment ^^
Doing “laps” – Cuckoo – deceased oct. 2010
If only you could see “you” the way I see you. Old Dawg “sees” YOU!
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hey thats how you found this site- ey dawg?, You’re one of the strongest in pain, that disguised smile keeps away the questions, its the eyes that struggle to keep it in, thank you for putting a smile on everyone’s faces while you needed one on yours too. I think you’re a special person
appreciation! – oneinse7enbillion
thanks dawg
actually im sorry too dawg, i mistaked you for someone over the pain here to help others in it, it does go over my head when you have that easy-going comedic helpfulness towards everything. Thanks again dawg
guilty oneinse7enbillion
(dont worry the sign out is only for this post -thought it was appropriate)
Stay strong dawg
Dawg, you’ve commented on my posts a couple of times and it always managed to make me smile. I wish I could think of a way to return the favor. As always, I’m always here for you. Email me if you need to talk n-madrid98 @ hotmail. com
Dawg- I wish there was a way to ease your pain. All of it. Any of us would help you if we could. You always help us when we need it, put a smile on our face, or make us think. My thoughts are with you today, I hope the intense pain subsides soon.
my heart aches reading this. it sucks cause you’re always helping me. but there i go again, making it about me -_- ugh DAMMIT. umm. i love you dawg 🙂 (that should be good)
I know this post took a lot of gumption.
Thinking of you.
Gosh Dawg I’m so sorry to hear about your pain. I just dunno how you manage to caress dogs/work/write posts here with all that going on! You’re such a valued member of this site…but I think you know that. I hope the pain abates soon Dawg, and thanks for being you. Zx
Prayers to you Dawg. I understand your feelings about God – but I will pray for you regardless.
Hope you have a GREAT day.
Dawg, hope the pain subsides. My grandad had similar problems. He wasn’t one to rely on conventional pain relief and instead grew poppies in the garden. He would put the seeds in his tea and all his pals used to come around for a special brew. I’m just glad we never got busted by the cops. I’m not recommending it BTW but there might be other effective treatments that can be obtained legally.
I suffer with back pain also, sometimes I have to get an ambulance ride to the ER, yet haven’t found a DR. that writes scripts ever. I don’t know how the druggies get all the scripts.
Thank you for all that you do dawg, not only do you put a smile on my face, but you saved me from blowing my brains out in front of everyone I’ve ever known. I also wish I could help you, but I believe fate will reward you for everything you do for us and for staying tough.
YOU ROCK DAWG!
reminds me of a song lyric by audioslave “To tell you I need you today” it made me think how a person can help others all the time but when they need help or are in pain whatever it may be noone can see or they dont try to help, like its ok for them to say “i need you” but not for the one being needed. i hope you know its not like that for you here, yes you give great advice and make people smile but you hurt to and when you cant or have had enough of helping people its fine to let them no you hurt, here you dont have to smile all the time, hope things pickup soon.
Dawg I wish there was something that could ease your pain. You’ve managed to make me smile with your comments over the last few days and for that I am truely grateful. You seem to be a very strong individual and I’m sure that will come back to you in one way or another.. Hope you have a better day tomorrow
Hang in there bud. Hope your day gets better.
We love you Dawg,
Soon you may well be elected mayor of SP town.
Peace.
Hahaha I agree with the Guardian.
Dawg, you’re an amazing person. I see your name all over everyday trying your hardest to help and make us smile and laugh. I’m thankful to have you on this site. I’m sorry you’re in such pain. We all know you don’t deserve it and we all love you! I hope your day gets better, you’re strong. <3
Dawg,
I respect when you put your points across and felt you always added some knowledge to some things, I think your age and experience brings something different here that younger folks are unable to do. I agree with many of the comments before me, so not much to add, I know physical pain and so I could only hope you better, and wish you well. If my mood was different I might have better or wiser words… sorry.
hope by end of this you are “happier dawg”
blue silentblue
:0 such adorbale dogs:D animals are great
I’m sorry you’re in such pain, Dawg. You really do mask it well by remaining positive and rather upbeat most of the time. I basically agree with everyone who commented before me. You bring laughter and wisdom and sage advice to SP. You’re valued and loved by pretty much everyone here, including me. I’m glad to have met you. I hope you find some relief for that pain. I like taking natural remedies. Have you tried anything natural? No, not MJ. 😉
R.I.P Boo and Cuckoo. I like that little picture at the bottom with the quote. Almost makes me want to cry.
sad girl.
Wow – not “quite” the response i expected when I wrote this post – that said – i’m not sure what I “expected” … I just want this to be more “informational” and kind of a ‘vent/rant” – kinda like a frustrated scream of irritation just to ‘let it out” – not to ‘fish for sympathies” – to let you know that i too have ‘issues” (most of which are laid out in my 1st SP post) that i deal with and fight through every day – maybe not the same as some of you – but they are a trial and, like you, i fight through them every day – i seek purpose and i do things i don’t want or like to, to get through each day
Your hopes, prayers, thoughts and wishes for my well being – I am touched and deeply appreciative of them.
THANK YOU 🙂 <3
I added a few pics of my mutts – past and present – so y'all get a "mental image' of this old geezer.
time I spend 'here' with y'all, is time i am diverting my attention from my own issues – it also reminds me that my issues aren't always 'that bad" – the pain that I speak of in the above post is real, but not the catalyst for why I'm here (see my 1st post) but it is a contributing factor – but me focusing on you guys is something I find very therapeutic for myself – and it allows me an "opportunity" to 'make up" for what I could not do for my own kids – not that anything "happened' to them – i just wasn't "around" enough to be considered "relevant" … so you guys get to "benefit" from my kind, caring, neurotic, sarcastic and abrasive but usually objective and positive experience/wisdom.
for you guys – all of you – i will do what I can … if I can – but … I AM you – no better, no different
team dawg
Nice pictures, and I really feel the quote from the last one
Hi Dawg,
You know I only joined you guys yesterday – or the day before – (don’t know, my perception of time has gone along with my mind) – but you stood out to me, there is something quite pleasant about you!
enough with the sop
I’m sorry you are in so much pain. That’s shit.
I can’t take the pain away, but I can give you a very bad joke:
What’s green and looks like a bucket?
A green bucket.
green buckets are good 😀 … as long as there’s not a hole in your bucket dear liza, dear liza
no one can ‘take the pain away” and surgery, along with being unaffordable, is too risky anyway. I will persevere – it was just sort of an “ARRRGH!” moment
happier dawg 😉
Nope, no holes, if there is, we’ll fix it dear henry – was it henry?
When I was a kid, I was very close to getting a dog that looked very much like Cuckoo :] I love dogs, never have owned one though. The mutts are adorable.
Wish I could take it away, and wish someone could do the same to me, magic. poof, gone! ya know?
Well, I’m glad your happier at least :]
Good night!
@1in7 – actually my pain/medical situation had very little to do with my motivation for finding this site
@louise50 – actually – the time I spend here shifts my focus from the shittier things in my life – in other words – i find y’all’s issues easier to deal with than my own and the pain gets sent to ‘the back of the bus” in my brain
kramden dawg
@sophie – there’s nothing wrong with it ‘being about you” … as my grandpa always used to say, “take care of number one, first” … if you want to help me – help yourself … see the good kind caring sensitive person that I see and don’t let the naysayers rattle you – they don’t matter – you do.
crutch dawg
@ineed2die – glad you’re still sticking around – besides – I’d be a tad miffed if you got bbbrrrraaaaaaiiiiinnnnnsss…. on my shirt … you know how hard that stuff is to wash out?? … I don’t think they’ve invented superultra Tide with Brain remover yet.
zombie hunter dawg
@Duke – I LIKE your grandad 😀 😀
poppy dawg
@sickeveryday00 – not really – my pissyness just overwhelmed my ‘filter’
safety blitz dawg
Hope your having a better day dawg…
better than yesterday, thanks 😉
still trying to motivate and go work though
lazy dawg
I’m a lazy cat Dawg. If I could spend two thirds of my life sleeping, I would! Eat, sleep, lie in the sun. They’ve got it made.
I totally get what you say about being here being therapeutic and keeping your mind off your own problems. I find that too…
Zx
only those cats and dogs that are the lucky select few that find wonderful, adoring, safe and caring homes … only those have it made
unfortunately the vast majority face unimaginable cruelty, neglect, torture …
but yeah – to be a dog in my house is a pretty sweet gig. 🙂
phat dawg
Amen to that Dawg. My cat has a nice life…and she’s a rescue mog…many don’t. Zx