i feel ugly all the time. i feel like i never do anything right. i walk down the halls at my school and everyone is soo much prettier and smarter and better than me. i really dont know what to do. i want to die. i want to just kill my self. ive thought about it so many times.  ive planed it but something always gets in the way. i cut my wrist almost everyday. and everyone always asks me why im always wearing sweaters and im running out of excuses. my parents yell at me all the time, my brother and sister are better at everything than me. no body knows im this sad. aparently the only thing im good at is faking a smile. i want to die. i think im done living. and knowing that im depressed and im feeling like this. if  i dont die. and i maybe end up growing up and having kids…. odds are there gonna feel like this too, and i dont want to do that. so if i just kill myself it will make everything better. it will make everyone so much happier. i guess i dont really know why im writing this, i guess maybe i want someone to change my mind. but at the same time im to tired, im to broken, and im just ready to die.
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Not quite ready yet. School is shit but give yourself a chance to see what happens after school. It usually gets better. But it sure does sound like you need to talk to someone… Doesn’t your school have a councillor?
Sweeite, I went through hell in high school and felt ugly to and then later on in my 20’s I became a model and had lots of friends and boyfriends. Just wait as one_day says. Try to improve yourself. That’s what I did.