Hi. I’m 25, female and I’m suicidial.
I’ve had thoughts of suicide almost all of my teenaged years till now, but now I’m going through something that’s completely broken me and made me lose hope in everything. I have no one physically that I can talk to. But I feel like the only way out of this is to kill myself.
I’m a cutter, and the only thing I’ve been thinking about lately is slitting my wrists. I think about it all the time. About how I could enjoy my last bottle of wine, take the surgical blade from my medicine kit and slice downward my arms until I reach the insides of my elbows. The only thing stoping me is having my family find me since I still live at home. I very much want to die, I feel so betrayed by God. By everyone. It would be so easy. So easy to die.
I said I’d wait until the end of the week. But I can’t see a way around having someone I love find me.
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You say God has betrayed you, but heres the thing about God. God is inside of you. You just have to find him.
Well he’s curiously silent and it feels like he’s led me astray and completly forsaken me.
Or your curiously not hearing him. He’s not here to hold you hand down with every problem you face. He gives you those problems so you can learn and grow from them. Grow from this, don’t give up, learn.
i know how you feel,how can you find god when your in this state? i dont think there is a god anymore its a shame really