Look to the past and remember her smile, And maybe tonight I can breathe for a while, I’m not in the seat, I think i’m fallin’ asleep but then all that it means is i’ll always be dreaming of you….

Its nice to see you thinking things might actually be ok for a change Gnat Gnat, so what did your family do now? Running away isn’t much of an option, your family doesn’t do anything all that bad to you, and you don’t know where you would want to go. Just try to find some space for yourself within the house. You are almost out of there though, maybe you can go off somewhere for college next year or maybe some other option comes up. For now like you said you don’t need them so don’t let them effect how you feel so much, figure out ways to spend as little time with them as you can. Hey and at least you get your kitten soon that should make you happier to be at home. Just be happier that school seems to be going better so far this year and maybe that will positive outlook will have a good effect on how you feel the rest of the day 🙂

You know I was just thinking about it and out of your dozens of posts you have made on here this may be the closest you have come to making a positive post 🙂

Sure it has the part about fuck life, and running away

But especially that part at the end “Things will be ok, Nat. they will… One way or another. You can do this.”

And you know as long as you keep telling yourself that, then it really is true, things will be ok, and you really can do it 🙂

haha maybe the old Gnat didn’t do positive but the new Gnat does, I think I saw that you didn’t want to be Gnat anymore so maybe the new you whoever that is, is more positive 🙂