It’s been a while since I posted. I’ve been super busy with my new cashier job… Which makes me want to cut my arms open. I drive 40 minutes to stand in one spot for 8 hours doing the same thing over and over, making min. wage. Everything is all wrong. This life is too much. My family is in pieces, my love life is falling right behind it, I’ve lost all my friends and become addicted to drugs and shit…
They keep telling me I’m crazy and I need help so I just keep telling them to shove it. I may be crazy but I’d rather die than get help from those fucking hypocrites.
Ranty, rant, rant, I’m just way down in the dumps today and nothing seems to be making it better, only worse. ):
Work tomorrow at 10am, maybe I just won’t wake up.
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Hmm lighten up the monotony maybe? I’ve never had a cashier sing to me…
i wish u the best. i really do.
BUT, you mention the lousy pay (which i interpret as you are gripping about money)…. yet you talk about using drugs…. UMM HELLO?.?.?
Useless, I know, hence why it’s an addiction. ): I can’t save money for the life of me. Ugh.
Once you realize that getting help isn’t bad, that admitting defeat and trying to get better, also getting of drugs too, you begin to see that your life is fixable… it’s not the end. Far from it.
This could be your new begging the very day you want to get better.
I hope you find that you can become something more than what you currently are.
kk. sorry – i was not tryin to rip u.
i am just (personally) very anti-drugs
i tryed getting some help but it made it worse for meee
Try other forms of help. There are many outlets; including SP. I wish you the best on the eternal struggle I like to call life.
i know exactly how you feel. try to change it up at work. i would take my favorite poisons to work, always great. but thats not for everyone.