Everyone always says suicide isn’t the answer. Well I wanna know what’s the better answer? I have a good life: I’m in college, I have a job, no bills to pay, and I have a 4 month old niece who is the most awesome baby ever. Yet no matter what l am never happy and even worse I always feel empty inside. Nothing excites me, I always feel alone no matter where I am, and I can’t do anything to change it no matter how hard I try!! So you tell me, what’s the better answer to my problems? I don’t even care about being happy anymore I just want to feel ok! The only thing keeping me from killing myself is not wanting to hurt other people but even that is starting to wane. Everyday it feels like I’m dying slowly from the inside out and if that’s the case why not just speed it along?
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I agree with you. What is the better answer? I wonder this every single day. Being in such a state like this it literally feels like there’s no way out of all this pain, except death. Seems like no one can help you, seems like nothing can help you.
If there was an antidote to your life it is here in my hand, but you must hurry to find it depending on where u live it just went to flower/seed.~the nightshade family. datura will kill you especially if your intent is to od
Well, that is a major problem with extreme depression, when it seems there are no alternatives to suicide. I know how that is too, but I’m currently at a dead end where I can go nowhere but down. You on the other hand…Having a ‘good life’ and all, I assume your suicidal tendencies are related to chemical problems, hormonal imbalances and whatnot. I’ve heard of others like you, and it turned out to be that. I’d consult a doctor, hopefully they can put you on something that will help you.But that’s just what *I* have to say, and what would I know?
Death is an analgesic which permanently numbs life’s pains…along with all those good feelings worth living for..
I agree with giegue, justwhatiam, I think you are describing the symptoms of depression. It does isolate a person, but the reality is you are very far from alone in your feelings.
What is the better answer? Much greater minds than mine have wrestled with this conundrum, the French existentialists for instance. Suicide IS the logical response to the utter absurdity and seeming pointlessness of a life of struggle that ends in death. I guess I think one has to move beyond logic in this case, and rise to the challenge of finding your own, unique answer to the question you pose.
I wish you all the best justwhatiam. Zoe x
justwhatiam,
I agree with everyone on here, sounds like depression probably a chemical imbalance a lot of people have that and don’t even know it,there is nothing to be ashamed of, you can go to a doctor and tell him about it and he will prescribe to you something that will help take the edge off, in the meantime I think everyone goes through times like you are, sometime in their life, sometimes for years and years, it’s kind of like being in jail and doing time waiting to get out, but with the right medication you will start feeling better and that will change your attitude. Have you never gone to the doctor for depression?
If not then then just do it, it couldn’t hurt.