My Night
I put the cold barrel in my mouth,
To quiet the screams that may come out.
My hands shake when the time nears,
As my eyes cry silent tears.
I can’t help, but think to say,
Will this really be my last day?
I wanted to test fate with a little game…
Russian roulette, now that is a shame.
I sought out a sign to tell me to stay,
To keep on trying until my golden days.
Three out of five loaded, and ready to go
Two left out, now time for the show.
I pulled the trigger, and let out a small yell.
I was sure, right then, I had been sent straight to hell.
As the minutes passed, I opened my eyes,
Life fucking won out, instead of my demise.
I cried to myself, what a stupid game to play.
But was that my sign telling me to stay?
The nightmares come again and again.
When is the next show? When will this end?
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2 comments
Are you ok ? I haven’t heard from you in a wile. I was litterally wincing as I read this, you’ve tested it, that was your sign !! Please don’t do it again, you need to get help x
S2419 I am doing alright. The best I can right now. How have you been?