first off… im new

Ok, so by the title yu can see that im new soo i dont really know what to say right now. im 16 years old, my daddy died a month ago. he was my rock, the only person i really had… but now that he passed i live with my drunk whore of a mother. shes told me 100 times she doesnt care about me. she calls me a ***** and a slut. i know ima slut but im honestly not a *****. i can act lik a ***** when someone gives me a reason but other than that im a nice person. iv been cutting my self since i was in 7th grade i think i was lik 13 but idkk. iv never actually tryed to commit suicide but i think about it all the time. I know im never gonna do it but I kind of want to. but i couldnt do that to my sister natalie and my other mother. speaking of them i should probably tell youu that there my best friends in the world. Tressa has been there for me since i was 10 and her daughter has been there right next to me. I love them with all my heart and i dont know were i would be with out them right now (probably dead). so yeahh just a little bit about me for now soo peace out.