Ive lost/about to lose everything that is important to me. I let some outside factors take over and rule my life. Making my relationship suffer and eventually costing me the only person who really matters. It all started when my dad was tricked into accepting stolen property. My dad is an old sick gentle man who has survived cancer. He still needs a lot of medical attention but now he has two felony accounts on him. During the same time my band i have been with for 5+years breaks up and one of best friends goes to jail for something he didnt even do. So i have alot on my mind and it kinda spills out onto my relationship. She leaves me for good reason, i was going through crazy mood swings constantly under stress from all the other bad shit going on in my life. I realize this try to fix things tell her everything that happened and how i will change. How I want to change, and get my life going. She says its not enough an she has to think. My best friends family who is like a second family to me. Who I always thought was w really tight good family is falling apart they are going to lose there house. Then the next day my dad tells me he has cancer again. I cant take it anymore I have already lost so much and dont want to see what happens next. I can barely go on as it is. There is nothing positive in my life whatsoever.
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Life is absolutely crazy. Not to sound cliche, but everything happens for a reason. Everything you are going through has it’s purpose. Your dad survived cancer once, he can do it again. Do not let that stress you out. As for the stolen property, if he is innocent, you have nothing to worry about. He has you on his side right? Fight for him. Do what you have to do to support him and prove him innocent. As for your girlfriend, I know it hurts..but in my opinion, if she cannot accept your apology and willingness to change, maybe it is better that you are NOT with her at the moment. What you need right now is support, not to be left. A good woman will stick by your side. If you love her and she TRULY loves you, let her go. She will come back, if not now, then when the time is right. As for your best friends family, like I said, everything happens for a reason. We all go through things. I once was at a point in my life where I lost my apartment, my car, my boyfriend..basically everything, all in one day. Guess what happened? I survived. Now my life is at an even better place because I rebuilt it. There may be nothing positive in your life but you can make positive things happen. Change the way you think and you will change your life. If you want to change, stop talking about it, stop thinking about it, show it with action.
Don’t be afraid of what happens next. Be prepared for it.
Sometimes things happen that make you suicidal, but think about it… Your life could get better at any time, just smile.