Just when….

just when you think you can handle everything you in the end you can’t i am never understood by anyone and you have to know my story in order to judge me. you only know my name not my story so do not judge me before hearing it.  if you want to hear my story all you have to do is ask and you can tell me yours in return i am here to listen but do not think i do not understand anything because i do. i understand a lot of things sometimes you have to explain something to me but do not think i do not understand. i want to be here for people not turned down because i am ugly or fat or stupid or no good i am a normal human being just like everyone else in this world i am just not perfect. I HAVE GONE THREW SO MUCH UNFAIR SHIT IT MAKES ME ANGRY. i want out all the time, i want to give up i just want too drop dead some days. i really hope someone can talk me out of another attempt…. my attempts are not because i need attention or someone to listen too me vent, i am doing this because i am so depressed it literally takes over me some days and when it takes over me, my thoughts of suicide are worsened and i feel so hurt and alone that no one gets it but people on here no one wants to deal with someone like me because of my sadness. i just want it all to go away i just want to fade away i just want out i want to be able to have to stop trying to die and just die already no one would really care but my support and love on here my family wait what family? my family is so torn apart there really is no family. people at school and friends it be as if i never existed that all i was is that some kid they were able to pick on that girl who could be easily taken advantage of that thing no one cared about