lifes un fair but dont give in… <3

so im a 14 year old teenager and in constant pain. ive been pulled out of school because i was bullied extremley bad. my life has been going down hill ever since i was 12 and got a diease in my foot which spread to my whole leg and then to my other foot and up my leg and now its going into my hand. what would you do if you knew you were going to be in pain for he rest of your life and nothing can help???? i used to be an odinary kid full of smiles laughter and hapiness that was real, but now its fake laghter fake smiles and fake happiness. i dont look like i have anything wrong so dont judge a book by its cover!!!! sometimes i cry myself to sleep at night because all the pain and thoughts come racing into me. i have attemped to end my life by doing an od but it didnt work out i got put into hospital and unfortunaltly the od did nothing to me…. the only reason im alive right now is because of my family, even though i feel hated i still love them and no matter what i always will. i hope whoever reads this knows that if i can survive you can to it may not be a good thing at the time but hings will get better weather you got bullied have a long termm sickness or have lossed a loved one you can fight through this, i believe in you….. lots of love …