suicide is
a permanent solution
to a
temporary problem.
you should ask.
i could answer
make everyone laugh.
it’d be great if
i could make you think.
make you realize that
suicide
is real.
and people feel it.
and people do it.
and rational consideration-
‘how will this affect others?’
-doesn’t come into play.
because pain is
real.
pain can make us do
stupid things
if we’re not
strong enough.
stupid things
like acting on it.
it’s an intense need to
escape
coupled with a limited understanding
of what death is
of what death can do
how it can
damage
and not solve anything at all.
it’s when you feel
powerless
to change things
hopeless
pointless
futile.
you KNOW
people will be hurt
because you did it
but
it doesn’t matter then
it doesn’t register
because
staying alive to keep them reassured-
maintaining, so they won’t have to suffer
while you do…
it’s not enough
to keep you alive.
keep you
here.
maybe if you do it
maybe they will realize
you weren’t kidding
when you said you needed help
or when you didn’t
say
a thing
but they could tell
something was wrong
maybe then
they would take you
seriously.
it’s the wrong choice
because life isn’t meant to be thrown away
but it doesn’t register
because pain
makes us do stupid things.
some of us aren’t strong
enough.
some of us need to
escape
because it’s getting unbearable
past unbearable.
death is silence
after all this chaos
intense chaos.
death feels welcomed.
death seems the only way out.
out of this life
because there is no one
nowhere
to turn to.
and you want
out.
it’s irrational.
just like emotion is irrational.
just like being hurt is.
it’s not logical.
we don’t know death.
don’t know what it’s like.
we know life and how much it
hurts
sometimes more than
we can bear.
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sometimes, we hold on.
hold on to the wrong things
that
kill us
further.
poisonous embrace
to keep you
here.
it hurts
everything hurts.
the pain means you’re alive.
you don’t want the pain.
you don’t want life.
you let go.
it lets go of you.
when that happens
death seems like the better side
the greener grass
on the other side.
you can’t go back
erase all hope
any chance of
somehow
making it through
bleak, grim and narrow
your future-
you cut it all out.
maybe
just maybe
you could have
made it through
could have been happier
if you had the ability
to hope
beyond reason.
beyond imagination.
beyond circumstance.
suicide:
sui caedre
sui, self
caedre, kill
suicide:
noun
the killing of oneself.
Suicide:
noun
a mistake.
(a mistake born from
the inability
to deal with pain.
from not being
strong enough.)
suicide:
noun
a
permanent solution
to a
temporary problem.
(A.N. credit to lucy4 from The Suicide Project for the ‘permanent solution/temporary problem’ concept. i would link to the original post if i could find it; right now i can’t be bothered. ‘sui caedre’ is latin for ‘self’ and ‘kill’, from which the word suicide was derived)
3 comments
Freakin’ hell that’s deep, I’ve only thought of it like that a couple times. Do you really think it’s because we’re not strong enough? I’m weak?
Wow. Deep is right… Makes me feel kind of worse … I enjoyed the read thouugh.
“it’s the wrong choice
because life isn’t meant to be thrown away”
says who ? ‘God’ ? others ?