It is the unloaded gun that I keep putting to my head. I want to feel what I felt the other night. The surge of emotions, the rush, that fled through me when I did not know the outcome. When I didn’t know that in that moment it might be my last breath, my last tears. With the gun unloaded, I know the outcome. I will live. I will live until I know that I can load the gun again. I need something that I cannot get out of life any longer. But I keep going, I keep trying because I am strong. I am stronger than my mind thinks I am.
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What Caliber you got. & why head & not heart.?
I love you donnie
I’ve wachin to much dallas. Ok.
So you don’t love me back?
Will you shoot your self if i say no.
I will shoot myself either way. I would still like to know though, if you love me.
I don’t know you.
You seem to act like you do.
Really.?
Yes
How.
Donnie, you either love me or you hate me.
And why do you have to mess my post all up? I don’t care, love me or hate me. I love you.
Your story.
becuase you know me.
I will not troll your post’s ok. But you know what i’m sayin.
Thanks donnie, and thanks for your concern.
hi jael, i’m glad you are still here and staying strong. 🙂
I am trying OB1. I may need to unload my gun in donnie’s ass. But on the serious side, I am so lost now. How are you?
donnie, what is your opinion of marmite? do you love it or hate it? i love it 🙂
Make a post on it. OB.
jael, i’m fine, thank you.
i’m sorry you are feeling lost at the moment. are you still in the hotel or have you returned home?
donnie, i might get into trouble if i start a post about marmite.
Don’t the mods let you talk about Marmite these days? Megalomaniacs. They will be banning marmalade related discussion next.
OB1 I returned home on Friday. Unable to finish what I set out to accomplish. Which has made these day sort of hard to get through, but I am making it okay so far.
That is a beautiful, beautiful thought: “I am stronger than my mind thinks I am.”
I’m going to keep telling myself that. Thanks Jael!
Hi isaac. I got your email. I am in the process of replying. Are you doing okay today?
foggy. very very foggy. meds are going ape-shit on my brain. Just keep telling myself, “it will pass…it will pass”
so happy to sense that you’re feeling a bit stronger. that is so encouraging. 🙂
isaac It will pass. Okay? and we will be here for you to help get you through.
I’m new to this so i hope its okay to post a comment even though i dont know anyone at all.. just wanted to say that “I’m stronger than my mind thinks I am.” is really great and i honestly hope its true