What is the purpose to live

I´m 16 now and I´m writing here first time. I really thing about suicide somethimes but I think i cant make it. I can´t die with feeling I didn´t tried I surrendered to death to life to all people and whole my family.I dont want to run awayand I´m gonna fight. That is what i was telling for myself a lot times. But when i think about it now i can see a spark of tightly hidden will to live.Why? because of her. really old lady. For someone a purpose to live and for the others a reason they decided to die for.Love. Nope noone is in love with me… but i love just and only person on this world , person who doesn´t love me. I´m not gonna run away I love her and I just cant let her go. only happiness in my live is was and will be her. Only purpose to live. It doesnt metter if we would be together… She will be in my hearth forever. Its not so continual because m from slovakia and because i wrote what was feeling so … thx … at least i have found a place to cleanup my head