From the time I open my eyes til to time I close them, I always think about slitting my wrists or running in front of a train or wrapping a noose around my fat neck and letting it ride.
I think about it everyday.
Everyday I ask myself ..”why am I suck a *****? Why can’t I do it. Why didn’t I do it?”
Everyday I think about it.
Everyday I wonder.
Will it ever happen.
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I get how you feel. Everyday i think the same. Why didn’t i just jumped in front of a car, it’s so easy and still i don’t do it. I feel so weak then, and that makes me even hate myself more. I think that i am just afraid to not die and have a lot of pain.
i’m the same way except “I always think about slitting my wrists or running in front of a train or wrapping a noose around my fat neck and letting it ride.” i don’t want to be that crule to my self,i want to go alittle nicer.will it ever happen? it’s not over till the fat lady sings. the longer you wait the better the chances it won’t. besides you might change your mind.
The issue is loneliness. You want what you perceive other people have because we want the best for ourselves. something you are convinced you will never have. If you analyse it, few people tick all the boxes.
To an extent, you can change your appearance if you want to go down that road. There are drugs and surgical procedures. I’m not against that. Everyone likes to feel good about themselves but do it for yourself not for others
Some people were dealt a shitty hand, that doesn’t mean you can’t play the game until the end.