I can’t live anymore.
I’ve tried to suicide since I was 11, and I was suicidal when I was 10.
I’ve faked a smile, a laugh; I’m good at hiding my emotions. I can act like I’m perfectly happy, when I’m hurt. I can’t help it. I don’t want to show. I can’t speak up. I’m trapped in a living nightmare.
I feel like I have no family. My mom is always at work. And my dad…Him.
He sits in front of the computer and never seems to even MOVE. He’s like a statue, frozen. I feel like I can’t talk. Talking to a statue is pointless anyway. I faked for so long; I feel like I can’t fake, I can’t be a mask anymore. I can’t just tell, everyone would just tell me to ‘be happy’. HOW CAN I? It’s like telling me to fly with nothing.
I just want someone to talk to. But I can’t I’m stuck with life. 🙁
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I know I’m a complete stranger, but I will be willing to let you vent to me. I’m a great listener. I neer judge, so don’t worry bout that. I’m here for you.
I’m here to listen
ii know. exactly how you feel.