Yesterday my boyfriend told me that he wanted to break up with me because he refuses to stay with me if he goes 6 hours away for college. We’ve been together for two years and he won’t listen to anything I say.
I raided his medicine cabinet and I took all of the pills I could find. I’ve been throwing up for 18 hours and can’t eat or drink anything. I’m so dehydrated. When I drink anything, I vomit. I can’t stop sleeping but I needed someone to hear me in case I pass.
My parents have never listened to me. My problems have always been written off. I was raped six months ago (not by my boyfriend) and I’ve struggled with self harm and eating disorders since I was 12.
This is not my first attempt. I’m just so done…so over everything.
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Well the first thing you should do is throw all that medicine up. The second thing to do is, once you’re feeling better, is to live life. I’m assuming you’re between the ages of 17 and 20. You’ve hardly even lived life. You’re life is about 90 years long. Think about that, you’ve barely lived 15% of your life. I promise you, life will get better, you will meet new people. 18 bad years out of 90 possible amazing years should not be the reason to end it. I’ve already said this once but I’ll say it again for your sake. I see life as a package of Starburst. I know… Strange, but bare with me. View the pieces as “moments” of your life, obviously you have pieces that you absolutely hate (for me that would be plum or whatever the nontraditional flavors are), and there are pieces that you love (again for me, that’s lemon or orange 🙂 ). Some peoples “package” (life) doesn’t come with alot of the pieces they like, and instead is just full of the crappy ones. Some of those people get angry at this fact or upset, others kind of just take it in stride and are happy that they even have a package to begin with. It doesn’t really matter what order you eat them in, whether it’s the good ones first or whatever, because eventually you’re stuck with the crappy ones, and in this scenario, you have to eat them all. I guess it would be like someone blindfolding you so you can’t see you’re pieces. Obviously you can’t pick and choose your moments, but you can either be upset that you just got abunch of bad ones in a row, or go with the flow in hopes that a good piece will come up eventually. Basically what I’m trying to say is, in the famous quote from the movie “The Crow”, “It can’t rain all the time.” But there is a huge difference between life and Starburst, you can actually make good things happen in your life! If you have the mindset that only bad things happen to you, then guess what, only bad things are going to happen. Stay positive, and spread love to everyone you meet, because they have to eat their bad pieces too.