I’m so angry! Everyday I go to school and I only get humiliated by my classmates. At PE(and other classes) no one wants me as a partner. When I stand close to them they go further away from me and when they have no choice left but to choose me because there is no one left anymore they say ‘Not that one’ or ‘Tsk’ and sometimes they even yell at me if I do something wrong by mistake. I don’t get it. WHY ME? I don’t smell bad and I shower everyday. I’ve done nothing wrong with them to be treated this way.
Everytime they do that it stings so much that I just want to die. It’s so embarrassing to be the only one in the class that is not respected and to be the only one they don’t hold the door for. They just let go of the door once everyone walked through it and I’m the only one left. Today too. I’ve got so much homework to do because I wasn’t in school for a whole week(we went to germany in the holidays and didn’t have enough money to come back) and have to redo everything I didn’t do while I was gone. I’m so afraid to go to school tomorrow. I wake up at 5:00 and arrive at school with the bus at 8:00(which is when school starts). School ends at 16:00(for me) and I arrive at home on 18:30. How can I possibly do one weeks worth of homework in such a short time? I would have to stay up all night for that and I have to do my homework or I will get punished and humiliated even more.  I really just wish I could overdose from pills and die but the problem is that I can only swallow 2 pills at a time. Even the third pill is hard to swallow and I can’t commit suicide any other way because it’s just too much of a hurdle for my mind to overcome. I’m so afraid. SOMEONE PLEASE JUST HELP!?
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Don’t let those kids bother you . People will be people . You have to accept the fact that people now a days have trouble accepting others for who the are . Its sad , but the truth . As for your homework , try to speak with your parents and guidance councelor about extending your homework deadline or doing something extraa to make up for it . Good luck .
Teen years are a tough time for everyone, and unfortunately it sounds like you’re being given an extra tough time. Don’t falter, there are only a few years for you to endure, and then you can get away from those people who bully you. If you can’t find the time at home could you try doing some homework during lunch? Or at the end/beginning of class.
Oh god, those kids should meet up with a fist cause need a bashin’! Dude, they are total fuckheads (excuse my language) They really don’t know anything. I don’t know how they can be like that, but that’s people these days. I’m sorry these things are happening, i know how hard it is, but i hope you can cope with it. Things will get better, i promise 🙂 Don’t committ suicide, you deserve to live 🙂 Best of luck.
Gumpy
HI Faust
This is my very first post here. I stumbled on this place and reading your message after Googling ‘no one likes being humiliated’. I have had a great lot of it in my life and feel you completely. I also have found my self in situations where no one in groups will pick me as a partner. I could give you a list of stuff and maybe you will be able to swap notes: people yawning at me when I talk to them; people talking over me when i talk; people suddenly looking away and talking to someone else when I was talking to them; being laughed at; no eye contact;…no interest. So for example, say becoming part of a group. You notice the others frantically trying to get into cliques–making lots of desperate effort. But not with ME! This has made me very resentlful and angry towards people though i am lots older than school age. ALL my school years were a nightmare. I did not click with any of the others and spent lots of time feeling utterly isolated and confused bored and hurt and fearful.
The whole school thing is wrong. It is enforced. All kids MUST go. The State threatens parents if they dont send their kids to these open prisons. And in this situation you are gonna meet a lot of twisted inmates, like you do in the prisons! And some –who are creative, and ‘different’/unique can find themselves victims of bullies and conformists.
All I ask you to know, and you are more than welcome to personally contact me if you wish–is to please see the bigger picture. PLEASE see it is not YOU to blame. it is the school system, and the horrible people these children are becoming who have no feelings for others like yourself. try and bear it out till the end of your prison sentence, and till then you will find friends outside that horrible place, on the internet and home.
by the way. PLEASE ALSO tell someone how you feel. Tell your parents how it is for you. It is very important. Dont feel shame. many people who feel socially rejected feel shame, but you shouldn’t. JUST because they seem big numbers of these un-feeling assholes doesn’t make them right. In Nazi Germany there were millions all loving Hitler, but they weren’t right were they? And imagine being the odd one out there!! So please trust you self, love yourself, and see through this ordeal. But you need to talk to someone because it is not right you having this stress. is there any chance you can get home learning?
Even though my reply is pretty late, thank you! You have hepled me alot and it’s nice to know that there are still people like you in this horrible world. My state is still the same but you guys give me alot of encouragement to live on! I was pretty desperate and in need of help when I wrote this.. it’s nice to have a helping hand sometimes 🙂