I can’t find it.

I cry. But then i’m ok. I don’t understand either. I fell in love. He fell in love, But not with me. My best friend. or was. I dont know anymore. They kiss, they hug, they touch, They break my heart one piece at a time. I feel like my hearts in his hands and he broke it then threw it away. And as hard as i search i just can NOT find it. I ruin every opptunity for someone to help me find it. I can’t go on like this. I just can’t.