I Can’t Take It Anymore………

I just can’t take my family anymore… I am tired of being treated like shit and everything else. It feels like I don’t belong anymore. Most people don’t understand what I am going through and say that I’m complaining. If you lived my life, you would sound like me, too. My sister is 14 and beats on me whenever I don’t do what she says when I am the older sister and says shit to me that she knows will hurt me. I may be older, but I have really bad depression, so I really can’t help it. I wish that I could. And then my mom makes me feel unwanted and unloved by saying that I’m an embarrassment for not being “normal”. What the hell is normal anyway? Whatever it is, I don’t wanna be it. I just wanna be me. I am only surviving for my baby gurl, who I am 7 1/2 months along with, my boyfriend, my girlfriend, and my friends. Without them, I would be dead by now. I just can’t take the crying and the yelling and the insults and the hurt anymore. Why can’t I just be me? I don’t see anything wrong with it. Do you…?