I just want to die

I just want to die. I have plenty of friends, great job, beautiful house. But I’m just tired. Tired of pretending my life is great. My husband is a selfish ass. And of course the only thing that matters is how he sees me. Even though I know he is a selfish ass. I want him to give me some credit. Not put me down for every thing I do, think or say. Of course I’ve tried to talk to him about this ( only for 18 years). but women are the ever ” I can fix it” – with enough love understanding and communication everything can be solved and saved. Bulll shit, men just get more selfish. The more you do the more they take. Ok at least my husband does. Tonight he told me I was being a ***** because I asked if he was going to put away the
tritip he got out of the fridge. I’m just so tired of trying to make everyone else happy. What about me, when do I get to be happy. I’m not aking for some one to make me happy, I would like to be able to be happy about the things I’ve done. Without being criticized and corrected. I know that sounds horriblly weak. But I am a good person. I’m tired of waiting for good to come my way. Im a chicken and seriouslly think that disappearing would be best for all.