Im not going to do my usually ten thousand words of deep shit. I just want to spill the facts. I’m a girl, I lost my first love, I can’t stop thinking about him, I have next to no friends, my parents hate me and say I’m a disappointment, I tried suicide and I do self harm.
I just want to enjoy life again.
I know the first step is getting over my ex. Im working on that, I’d love to cut him out of my life but I am forced to see him everyday so it will take a lot longer than most people. How the fuck can I just have a hint of happiness in my life again? Like it was a year ago?
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Find a new one.
I think, despite being sad and all, there should be things that you still enjoy.
Stop thinking about him, and what you lost, and what may be in the future.
Find one thing you like about yourself. I would for example, say, that you can understand other people that feels like yourself. And you wouldn’t tell them they are a disappointment, because you understand. Your parents can’t understand.
I find that to get over someone, keeping your mind busy helps.
Why is that you cut yourself? I haven’t cut myself ever, because it would leave marks. But I have done other stupid stuff. What is the reason that makes you do it? I find, that in my case, I want to punish myself. Over what? Does it really matter? Feeling the way you feel, it is not your fault. And even the fact that you don’t have your bf, it is not your fault. So there is no reason to punish yourself.
Start doing at least one positive thing foryourself everyday. Doesnt matter how hard.
Think less about negative things, and more about positive things. And you will start to feel better 🙂