Is there really a point?

I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for at least the past 6 years (i’m only 20 but I can’t remember a time when I didn’t feel how I feel now)
Basically I had a traumatic childhood and early adult life and i’ve tried counselling/prescription drugs and nothing has worked.

I have many failed attempts behind me my last one was a paracetamol overdose, I walked to a remote place to let the paracetamol take over and cause irreversible  liver damage but turns out my remote location wasn’t remote enough and I was found by a ‘good Samaritan’ and taken to hospital :@

I have tried to stop feeling the way I do, i’ve tried engaging with everyone and resolving the issues of my past, and up until a week ago I thought I was on top of things, i’d gone 4 months without a depressive episode.

I found out I was pregnant again (last pregnancy ended in miscarriage) and I was with the perfect man – or so I thought. He turned out to be a user. and this week I miscarried again. Since then i have been in my deepest low.

This time it seems that i’m never going to get out of this rut, and that i’m stuck and never going to get through life…

does anyone else feel like this…this forum/blog is my last ditch attempt at survival really, as I feel i should try everything before I do something drastic again…but none the less I am prepared for this to fail…and if it does i’ll be putting myself into insulin shock.