You got to go there to come back! Problem is some kent the fuckin map away wi them. Now this kent is lost with no way back! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKÂ FUCKÂ FUCK!
and this shit hole of a fuckin chicken town doesn’t fuckin help, everyone walking past like they don’t know they are alive! Well i won’t be having that issue for long!!!
FUCK IT!
(pardon the french)
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Boots let all of your anger out, it’s good to vent,
I don’t know exactly what you are talking about but it seems like you are mad at society as a whole,
If you want to talk, I’m here man
Boots don’t say that 🙁 I’m not going to let you jump ! I’m sorry but it’s not happening !! You will get through this ! I promise !!
Naw man, society can do whatever it wants i couldn’t give a fuck about it!
I don’t know what i’m angry at man. Just it’s the only feeling i have right now otherwise i’m just numb! so i have to cut myself to make myself feel! So i get more pissed off at myself!
I used to be sad and depressed, at least then i had something to feel but this is worse! I don’t feel a thing!
And s2419 thank you i hope your right. I just don’t know the way back out of this! There is no light at the end of the tunnel, as people put it.
There is no need to lie to ourselves. Boots is right. Sometimes it is nice to feel even if it is pain.
I wouldn’t care what i felt as long as it was something. i want to hurt!
Then I will cut a whole in the tunnel so you can see the light !
Why does it have to be at the end ?
It feels like a bloody big tunnel though! Don’t know if if this one has any light anyway. What if it doesn’??
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It does !!the lights on the outside, you just can’t see it. And if it’s a fucking big tunnel I’ll use a fucking big knife !!
I wish I could feel anything other than utter despair and misery… That in itself is its own pain and torture. Life isn’t meant to be lived feeling like this, it would be more humane to kill me! Think we all kinda feel the same, that’s why we are here!
@boots I know what you mean man, a few months ago I was extremely numb, to the point where I just wanted to feel something, so I came on here so I can be depressed by reading all the stories from all these depressed individuals, and instead of getting depressed I found happiness, really ironic I know, and I’m glad I found happiness. I guess what I’m trying to say is that things happen in the most unlikely times, I know this sounds cliche, as I type it I do feel like an idiot, but it’s true. I thought I was going to come on here to feel sad and depressed, and look for more ways to kill myself, I never thought I could find a reason to live for, or happiness, I just thought I was going to be a miserable fuck for the rest of my life(which would have been 1 more year). Boots you are a very good man, you are very kind, and sweet, and you help my little angel 🙂 so I really want to thank you for that, thank you boots. I’m sure if you can make a girl like s2419 happy you can do wonders, for you and for others. I’m not sure if you are suicidal, but if you are I want you to know that you mean so much to s2419, and she would be devastated if you left. I’m sure you can find someone to take care of you, someone to love you, or someone to make you happy, because even if things are bad now you can still find happiness.
Sorry for rambling
Thank you rathernot. I don’t know, i’m glad you found happiness and i’m glad you are doing better. I just don’t know if i will, i just cant see a way out! I just don’t know man. I’m can’t think past tomorrow morning far less anything else to even begin to comprehend if i will find happiness!
You don’t need to thank me, really you don’t, S2419 has kept me alive the last few days so the least i can do is look out for her. I know she misses you, i hope it isn’t too long before you see each other again! I can’t stop thinking about leaving, i was so tempted today, i just didn’t want to let her down. Your a good guy, i know your the light in her eye she is always saying how amazing you are and how you treat her like a princesss! I’m glad you two are happy together, i’m glad you found your reasons to live, i hope i find one as well.
Boots your really making me smile 🙂 its so sad that such an amazing guy like you has gone through the shit you have 🙁 And s2419 is always telling me that she cares so much about you, she tells me how lovely you are, and she tells me that she really just wants to help you through this, and she tells me that you keep her safe and happy when I’m not available, so thank you even if you don’t think I should thank you, I really should 🙂
I know how hard things are for you right now, and trust me I know how hard it is too see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been exactly were you are(well emotionally) I understand how dark things are right now. You feel like there is no hope, or reason to live. The feeling of hopelessness is horrible, it doesn’t matter what anyone tells you it’s just to hard to believe that things will get better.
Just know that it took me 17 years to find happiness which I never thought I would find, but I did, and if you wait long enough so will you. I know how easy death must seem, how comforting and pleasing it seems, but if you become happy then death doesn’t seem that great anymore, because you are glad to be living the way you are.
I really hope you find someone or something to give you a reason to live.
Question, if you had one what would your reason to live be?