Hi. Call me eve. I’m new so yeah. I do self harm  Okay so I guess I’ll start of with my cousin. My cousin and I are in the same grade. She has a great body and is a real beauty to guys… Me on the other had I’m flat chested that’s said by others and I don’t get the guy that I really like . You se this dude Rafael we had. Lot of past and like he was so nice to me and helped me keep on going in life . We started talking and BOOM I started to really like him. That’s when he asked me if I liked him and I said yes I asked him the same thing and he Siad yes. But what I didn’t see was that he was playing with my heart. He was flirting with my friend and asked her out mutilate timewhile he was playing with me. He tell s me that God didn’t want me to be with him. Bye is such a asshole and like I really fell in love with him. He completely ignores me andflirts with my cousin. That’s some to my story
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Hello Eve,
Welcome to SP…I will be your unofficial greeting committee…please follow me…hahaha.
Seriously…sorry that you felt a need to be here…but glad you came all the same. There are lots of folks here who are dealing with similiar issues…unfortunately I am not one of them…mostly because I am an old woman. Just remember that people come and go here and often get caught up in their own agendas…and rightly so. So stick around…read other posts if you like…comment on them if you feel the urge…and make yourself to home for a reason or a season…and know that someone is listening if you want to talk.
Peace
Amakua
Looking back 10 years I find that all the girls that were unpopular at school are now better than the ones that were. It’s a funny old world.
Her_withCuts,
Aw your too young to seriously mess with boys, they are way too immature, in short there dummy’s! My advice is to use them treat them like a piece of toilet paper and then throw them away. I like flat girl’s erroowww!
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not an easy one here. It is so hard to see the future at your age. It is so hard to believe that things will and do change. And I sure as hell do not want to sound like the lecturing old grandpa with no teeth telling you about “back in my day……”
BUT… a few things from a guys point of view
1. Your bf / or want to be bf or however you view him. IMO (take my opinion or leave it) – dump his ass. True – i have not seen you. BUT, I do believe in God and I do believe we all do have some purpose (I have no idea what some of them are – I guess we are not supposed to know). But if that guy is hitting on others instead of focused on you. Then he is slime and NOT what you want.
2. Flat chested. Ok, I am not a girl – so maybe I can not relate as well to this one. BUT, speaking as a GUY….. I do not like big chested girls. I know that most guys do like big chested girls. I am not one of them. In fact, I find I girl with a smaller chest FAR more attractive. I can not say exactly why – but it is. Point being – do not think of it as a negative. It CAN be a positive.
3. Love. It is so hard at your age to really know what love it. I am not gonna give you some lame ass thing that what you are feeling is not love but it is………… BUT, imo – love never dies. Love does not flirt with others. Love does not do anything crappy like that. YOU may be in love. No matter WHAT he says – he is NOT in love with you. Even if he says he is in love with you – he is a liar just looking for sex. Sorry to be so blunt – but you deserve better. And IF you truly are in love, then the good news is that you heart is open to falling in love – and another WORTHY person will eventuall find you.
Done with my long lecture-y speach. WELCOME to the board. I hope you find all the happiness you seek. And I hope you find peace in your soul.
Signed,
Your new friend. Write me anytime.
Gosh I love your post! You didn’t sound like an old grandpa (: