This Battle between Life and Death.

Inside myself colors gradually turn to either black or gray no matter the shade. I can see how beautiful this world is from a distant window, but by following the light my eyes have been hurt. I am color blind now for my own sake. Inside the dangerous corners of my being, the people I love never fade away, even when their silent good byes is all I’ve got left.

I see myself at the edge of a high mountain all wrapped up in red . The wind blows violently as the most vivid of tears run down my face. My feet are slipping through the dry sand that once was a lake. I am all alone and no one can hear the sound of my soul screaming for what it never found on this earth. Nighttime  approaches and soon the darkness that has always embraced me, will render me dead. Fall asleep now, tomorrow will never come, just dream of past dreams that were forever left undone. Let go, surrender to emptiness and pretend that you are no longer there. I always longed for a savior but no one could ever save me from myself. The saddest thing of it all is that this will not be the end.