I think I’ve officially lost my fucking mind. When someone that I love doesn’t talk to me for an hour or I haven’t heard from them in like a day I will make up this whole story in my head that something’s happened. I will actually talk to myself and feel the actually pain that I’ve lost them. For example I’m freaking out now because my boyfriend hasn’t talked to me since last night and he’s not online. I have made up this whole story that I’m going to eventually call his phone and his mom is going to answer and tell me he died in a car accident 2 hours ago. Then I will live for about a week and kill myself….this has been going on for the past 4 months. I officially think I’m crazy. The weirdest part is I will actually start crying because I guess I think about it so much to a point my mind starts believing it. Yeah….I’m pretty fucked up…