Why can’t I work up the goddamn courage? I want so badly to pick up my razor blades and cut away the pain, but all I can produce is a wimpy ass tiny nick because I’m too damn afraid.
I want so badly to take that bottle of pills and swallow them all, but whenever I’m alone I’m either too scared, or I’m crying too hard to unscrew the goddamn lid. I want to vent, but nobody wants to listen any more. It’s one thing to type it to complete strangers, it’s another entirely to tell the story of a thousand tears to my friend. Apparantly now I’m just looking for attention, but it’s understandable to be looking for attention when nobody gives a fuck anymore!
I’ve been searching for somebody to love me, or at least like me enough to say, come to the movies with me, but no. I’m that fat ***** who nobody wants to be near, who people ask out just to see her cry when she finds out it’s a joke.
Life is fucking miserable. I’m a terrible person, I’m so self-centered and shallow. Everything I say seems to offend somebody, even when I’m just trying to be funny. I don’t know why I bother.
I’m not pretty. Instead I surround myself with beautiful people so I can wallow in my ugliness. It just isn’t living, and I wish I could cure myself of this ‘living’ disease we all seem to be infected with, but like I said, I don’t have the fucking courage…
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Do you know where true hell is Ι_Ι?
Its in your head.
It’s okay l_l I can understand sometimes you can’t. But this isn’t an act that perseverance serves well. If you can’t cut deep, if you don’t feel like doing it, don’t cut. Just try to stop. I know, it’s difficult to just stop.
I don’t cut so i can’t help much.
Oh thank god…you haven’t yet?
Don’t have the will.
🙂 at long last god is not dead, for my sins have not been paid by another
God is dead. I told them my beliefs. At first they were angry then they just laughed at me.
Greed 😀 god is not dead nor doth god sleep, the wrong will fail, the right prevail for peace on earth good will to all.
No but all joking aside I hate that song and I agree. My god wouldn’t give me a band of scars wrapped around my leg.
God is an absentee Father.
Yeah actually that sounds pretty accurate
God has the “parenting skills” of a deadbeat dad!
God died because humanity killed him. The worse part is that they still pretend to worship the corpse he has become. The only comfort humanity has is the seven deadly sins.
Oh humanity, what are we going to do with you? At least the world’s totally going to end in around 18 days 😉
Greed., that’s some weird shit to be saying to someone who is thinking about killing themselves. I would mind hearing why you say all that stuff but maybe you should tone it down a bit. If you don’t agree please elaborate.