i am a woman,but i feel like a child sometimes. im married with a child, i dont know want to have these thought because i love my family but i feel like shit. i dont know if im smiling or im just waiting for the end of the day i stay at home ive only had 1 job n been out off work for a while He works and goes to trade school…somedays i try i look online for work i clean but i just give up its like forever is a day and it comes everyday we’ve moved far away from my hometown far i avoid talkin to my family when i do i try to make it seem like everything is going well. my inner saddest is destroying my marriage, i feel like its my fault we argue i say no for little things but when we argue i feel wrong for the things i say to him n i hurt from the words he say to me lazy dumbass but he say me being a stay at home mom doesnt bother him…. i knw it does but it bothers me more to be in the house all day i feel llike i dont contribute i feel like dirt i dont want to take myself but i dont want to keep putting on this smile i love my son thats how i thought i’d never do it, but these days feel long and it feels dark everyday i feel like its only a matter of time
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Hello Globbit,
First time on SP? If so…know that you are welcome here. I’m sorry it took so long to comment…but it happens…we are all living “real” lives and working with different time zones etc. Excuses over…haha Sorry you are feeling so bad…it actually physically hurts doesn’t it?
I would like to talk to you more about what you are feeling and dealing with. I think I can relate in some respects although I am probably much older than you. Actually…your post took me back some 25 or 30 years…sigh. At any rate…I will be in and out over the next couple of days…hope we can connect…would love to talk more. Others will want to talk to you too. In the meantime…have you read any of the other posts? Feel free to read others…you may connect with some…comment if you feel like it but don’t feel obligated.
Peace
Amakua