Just me you know.

funny thing is, nothing about my life is good nothing at all. It started when i was little it might not be much but it was alot, i remember getting bottle smashed near me, beer bottles at that, i remember seeing my grandma almost push my sister down the stairs, i remember being so poor we lived of mr.noodle shit for the longest time, then i couldnt remember i cracked my head open, i stoped remembering, all i remembered was this, thats it.. life started to be fine for awhile till my parents split up on my birthday yeah not much, but then again, my dad abused me and my mom, not anyone else just us, i remember having to go to school with hand marks on my arm it was bad, the cops never believed me they said it was my fault.. it wasnt.. then it got good again, then it went down hill, my step dad almosted raped me, my bestfriend/love of my life(seth) killed him self october 21 2011, my other 3 friends killed themselfs later on, and now.. iv lost my other best friend who ment the world to me, shes out of my life for good, and then  my mother kicked me out of her house i had no where to go, they riped all my things, she told me she didnt want me, that night that night alone, i downed  pills to kill myself , my mom saw me and knocked them out i wish i wish to god she didnt  and a bit ago i lost another friend, he was missing for a week, then his body was recovered in the lake.. i was dead in side i still am, and in 11 days i will be dead again since it will be a year since seth killed him self..  well, i guess this is where i tell you about my heartbreak.. iv gotten cheated on twice in the relationship , he then broke up with me and then five mintues later dates my ex girlfriend.. lovely.