Only know pain.

Good and bad are only terms invented for other people to tell you what you’re doing (good or bad). Imagine someone who never had someone tell them what good or bad is, that person would define those terms for themselves. And for pain, i know what you mean, sometime ago i felt so much pain inside i put cigarettes out on my arm, the pain you feel is only a mental challenge in disguise really. It wasn’t the right choice, because now i STILL have those scars. But everytime i look at them i think “Im glad i was able to overcome the pain so i didn’t feel the need to repeat my actions”. But all in all, life is pain, lifes an abyss, but why let go and keep falling? The relief of climbing out it is reward enough personally. Growing up i was chubby, not good looking, moved around alot so had no stable friends right away, my mother was a drunk and a whore and i had to live with her for 10 years as a child, still chubby in middle school so ridiculed for that as well, so yeah me and pain went hand-n-hand for a good long time. But one day i asked myself “no ones holding a gun to your head and saying i have to feel that way, so why am i?” Poof, instant releif, we humans are the masters of ourselves, if you don’t want to feel a certain way, you literally don’t have to. Pain is just what lets you know you’re still alive and human, we all go through our own pains, addiction, abuse, abandonment, but its how we overcome it that makes us stronger and more in touch with how we feel. Hope i helped in some way, if i didn’t i apologize for wasting your time.