Hi my name is Alexandra.
Me being on a website like this would be disapproved by all my family. But my family is not willing to help me and not willing to see the the problem I have as a big deal. I love them all so much but they will not give me help, and help is exactly what I need.
I cut I dont really remember the reason I started or even how I started all I know is that it felt…good.
My mom use to tell me what reason do I have to be sad? I don’t know I just know that I am sad. She found my cuts one time and she yelled at me and got mad then somehow my sisters found out and they were all on my case. But it was forgotten soon after. Then I showed my mom and dad the cuts on my legs and my dad didnt really react to it he didn’t care it seemed that way. My mom got mad again. I told her I had an intention and that was to kill myself. It wasnt for attention or anything like my sister and her thought. I have suicidal thoughts and three times I tried to hang myself to see what it felt like. My whole family at this very moment have forgotten that I cut. They dont check my arms or anything. I’ve asked my parents for therpay and after a whole year my mom finaly called for therapy for me.
I am 13 and I lost my virginity maybe 5 months ago? I lost it to a guy that was my friend in 6th grade. Loosing my virginity to him was the hardest emotional thing that happened to me at the time I was like cool cant’t believe I did that that was cool. But now i cry almost every night because I did that.
This is only part of my story.
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Baby girl, I’m about to die for love. But in the past, I have gone through something uncannily similar. And while, yes, I am still planing on dying sometime fairly soon, I did make it through the family situation. If you can live, we can too. If you can stay here on the earthly plane, so can we. I won’t tell you not to cut, because it’s the easiest thing in the world to say okay to someone you don’t know, and then turn around and do it. I’m not trying to preach to you, but I am asking you, a complete stranger, to live with me. We can survive.
Thank you:) I’m just trying to pull through emtionally some days I feel like I just dont care about anyone or anything I know my suicidea thoughts are getting worse because whenever i wanted to kill myself I would think of the people that would be hurt by it. But lately I dont even care about that.
It is a yes, and thank you I was getting really down and wanted to just cut. I’m glad there is someone like me out there.
So is that a yes? Will you survive with me? Honey, I can give you my skype name or email or anything you need. Just know that even though I don’t know a thing about you as a person, I do care. I’m a 13 year old girl too. I know how it feels.
Psh. Anytime, hun. I care, I do. I literally JUST told my boyfriend that I want a baby. So, we’re gonna run, instead of die. I am grateful to you, that I was able to help.
You really are serious about having a baby? im not judging but you really want it?
I’ve wanted it a long long time. He wants it as well… My mum (she’s a little crazy) is fine with it.
Oh wow that’s gonna be a big step for you then (: but if hes leaving how will that work?
We’re leaving together.
oh well thats good
i emailed u
This comforts me a little because my mom found out I was on this site but at least you have support through here
yeah its nice having people to talk to 🙂
and I totally understand what you mean with people thinking your doing it for attention, I guess it’s hard for people to understand it I guess because whenever they hear about mental illnesses they have to be a certain way if I’m making sense
yeah i get what your saying my sister thinks im exactly like her i just happen to like the stuff she likes and she thinks im trying to be like her so she thinks im cutting for attention like her but im not and she doesnt understand that
Hi, i cut myself too. When i first started a couple people noticed but didn’t even care. I cut my leg for the first time in two months and i forgot how great it felt. I’ve been trying to find someone that cuts too so that i can talk to someone that understands.
You can talk to me i most definitely understand ive been cutting for 5 years now. Ill be around and i will help if you want:)
I’d love to talk
yay! you can talk to me on my email tabiteata13@gmail.com
Did you get my email?
oh gosh sorry totally forgot