I’m safe for now

I had a plan; it all escalated over a guy; what’s new? He still gives me just enough to string me along.  And there is a man who likes me but there is zero chemistry.  Can’t there be chemistry and respect in one package?  Not since me deceased husband, and I’m not sure even loved met at the end.  OK, I’m not going to do anything drastic now, but I need you so much.  The time will come again when I need someone to talk me down.  You all understand a heck of a lot better than people on the hot lines.  They mean well, but well . . . Which is why I try to give back out here.  I need you.