I always find my self contemplating suicide at least four times a week.  But the weird thing is i’m one of the most happy/outgoing people i know i just get into theses moods where i feel nothing.  They last hours sometimes days where i’ll just sit and stare at my fan wishing i was dead.  I’ve tried killing myself twice before by hanging but both times the rope teared i failed to break my neck and only caused severe pain and would black out only to wake up to people trying to save me.
Does anyone else know what i’m going though and have any advice on how to cope with it? I don’t want to end it all just because i feel nothing half the time.
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Sounds like you might be bipolar. Why don’t you just try spending all your time with some friends or family. If someone is there to save you, it means someone cares. Keeping yourself occupied would definitely prevent any suicidal thoughts.
I mean me and my family aren’t close at all and i do try to keep my self occupied but because i’m no longer and school and have few friends left in my hometown i find myself with too much downtime. I try to work out everyday because it helps but even that seems to be failing. Thanks for the advice ” If someone is there to save you, it means someone cares” the only thing that really keeps me from doing anything at the moment is a close friend of mine