I’m 13 years old, turning 14 in March 13. I’m here again. Alone. I’ve been sexually abused by two family members and physically abused by almost every single person in my family. I’ve been beaten with objects. I can still taste the blood inside my mouth when it got busted and bruised. I’m insecure. I have cuts all over my legs and arms. And I have P.E too, we’re forced to wear shorts, I have to run everyday in the lockers and change as fast as possible making sure no one is able to see. I keep my razor inside my phone case, just in case. My best friend replaced me, he treated me like 4-5 years of friendship means nothing at all. I have to act like this happy girl and fool everyone with my laughter and jokes, when really, they don’t know that I call the suicide hotline number at least 4 times a week. My family hates me. My friends judge me, but I don’t blame them. I would judge me too.. I’m not attractive in my eyes. I can find beauty in everything except myself. My cry for help was never heard. And it’ll remain unheard, for the rest of my short lived life. I’m sorry..I just can’t silence the voices in my head telling me to “kill yourself, you fucking waste of space.” I’ll just give in to it. And satisfy its hunger for my pain.
-AgainstTheWorld
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Do you have skype, sweetness? If you do, add me, kay? it’s sixsixsticks. I would love to talk to you, I have been in that same place since yesterday. You contact me, alright? You can’t do this to your brother. I have one, too.
You sound a lot like me. I wish I had something more productive to say. Message me if you want.
Hey, i know this is cheesy and like everyone says it but someday it’ll be better. i promise. i was in that position at one point, and then someone came into my life that changed it all. even if that doesn’t happen now, it will happen in the future i promise. for now, just remember its only a few years till you leave them, it’s ok. fuck em, your life will be fucking awesome
Please don’t hurt yourself! You’re only 13 years old! I know that you have lived a life of pain, but your life is just beginning. Don’t end it yet. At least wait until you’re an adult. Please don’t give up.