Reflecting

I’ve been reflecting on a friendship that I ended 11 months ago due to my depression, at the time I thought that I was doing what was best for me while trying to keep them in mind but now I realize the effect it had on them, at the time I made the decision to end our friendship because I felt like I didn’t want to bring my negativity around them and bring them down but now I realize why it hurt because they felt like I didn’t like them I made a promise to myself that once I got rid of my problem I would go back to them.  Recently I’ve found myself wanting to apologize to them but I’m skeptical,looking at this has made me realize how I am with my relationships with people I usually keep my problems to myself and try to limit how close I get to people. but I’ve learned something about myself from it that because I don’t really open up to people and have no outlet to release stress the more anger I build up and the more I have frustration and irritability