When Was The Last Time (I Wanna Die)

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* Rapped

When was the last time you breathed?

I mean honestly, fully, whole heartedly took a breath?

When was the last time you took a stand?

I mean verbally, viciously, fought for something you believed?

When was the last time you fell in love?

Fell so hard, you found yourself unwilling to even get up?

When was the last time you truly cared?

Thought about somebody else, not the person in the mirror

Self-centered, self-ish, but sophisicated

We pride ourselves in all the wars and the domination

But what’s the point in killing other beings created

Like ourselves? We’re just all searching for a purpose

* Sung

And when I die

I wanna die quickly

And when I die

I wanna die happy

And when I die

I wanna die with a smile on my face

Knowin’ that I worked my ass off

Gettin’ to this place

When was the last time you lent a helping hand?

You’re selfish ways rot your being from within

Ego-tistical fucker, your fancy tux on, a “Man”

I find myself scoffing at your self-indulging behavior

When was the last time you really looked into the mirror?

I mean honestly, started at the person you’ve turned into?

When was the last time you felt your innocence in essence?

Went through a phase and suddenly, innocence was banished

To the pretend land

You have no time for that

You’re in the real world now, hope you can handle that

But you’re so far gone

So hooked on

Drugs and pain, your path is so far walked off

Fairy dust cannot save you

But at this point, you’ll snort any kind of dust as a last resort

‘Cause you’re

Self-centered, self-ish, and self-destructive

Hide yourself in expensive clothes, the pills you’re popping

But what’s the point

Of steeling from other beings created

And what’s the point

Of everyday gettin’ faded?

You waste away all your days on things to escape it

But what you’re doing isn’t even living

You’re merely floating, existing, surviving, but barely breathing

And for what?

If this is what life is

If this is all life is

If this is how we life

Frankly, I don’t see the purpose

When was the last time you heard your heart skip a beat?

Took a chance, lived life, and smiled so hard you

Couldn’t feel your cheeks

No more, they were numb

From happiness that cured it all

When was the last time you looked up?

Took a breath and decided to live?

Are you telling me

Do you expect me to believe

This is really just the way it is?

I wanna let them know

Let them know that I tried

But this world tore me down, so I had to

Say goodbye

We’re all crying for change in the moment

But sometimes that change isn’t possible yet

We all cry, but we never admit defeat

The way I see it

We all just waste our time

And we always say that we are fine

But we never are

Never truly fine

So we wake up one day

Reach in a drawer, it’s time

Pull the trigger, and scream, “I wanna die..”

You scream, “I wanna die.”

I scream, “I wanna die.”

I wanna die

I wanna die

I wanna die

But–

Although we are

Self-centered and self-ish, we all have hearts

We all care that another child’s life was lost

Look at the war

The destruction and pain

Look past our colors, and see we’re the same

Look at the people around you

Notice their names

You have no idea of their internal shame

Their disappointments, their reasons and means to survive

Look past the clothes and the drugs

Look into their eyes

Look past the choices, the falls

See where our humanity resides

Deep in our eyes

Deep in our souls

Deep in our pain, we all feel the call

We all cry, we all laugh, we all feel the strain, the emotional drain

If we could all just stop

To take a minute

If we could all just stop

And breathe

If we could all just stop

And see

Then maybe we can be the change

Our world needs

* Sung

When was the last time you thought about something deeply?

When was the last time you made a drastic change?

When was the last time you cried to yourself silently,

Promised yourself that your end was sure to be nearing?

When was the last time you wanted to die?

When was the last time you wanted to die?

When was the last time you wanted to die?

When was the last time..

* Sung

But when I die

I hope I die naturally

When I die

I wanna die clean

I don’t wanna know be scared that my end is coming

And I don’t wanna regret the life that I’m living

When was the last time you wanted to die?

For me, it is every single day of my life

The world we live in breaks my heart

And if change can’t occur

Then I don’t wanna live at all

But I don’t wanna die

(So?)

THEY don’t wanna die

(So?)

Do YOU wanna die?

(No..)

Well, neither do the children blown up by the bombs we supply

(Oh..)

But why?!

(I don’t know)

Why do they die?!

(I honestly couldn’t tell you)

They didn’t choose this life!

(Stop screaming, I believe you)

But it was not yet their time!

(Timing is inevitable)

But they did not want to die!

(I don’t know what else to tell you)

They do not want to die!

(Listen, kid–)

No!

They did not need to die..

(*Voice fading* Look, I know this is hard to understand, but it’s just apart of life. People die everyday. Bad things happen. You just have to grow the fuck up and learn to live past it)

* Sung

Goodbye to this horrible world in which we reside

This cruel, self-centered excuse of compassionate lies

This breaking of spirits

This destroying of lives..

Witnessing all this madness (ha)

How can you not wanna die?

* Sung

I had to say goodbye

I had to say goodbye

I had to say goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye

Cruel world of mine

(*There’s a heart monitor that beeps quickly as the blood pumping into someone’s heart struggles the keep their heart beating. After painful gurgling sounds coming from the person trying to breathe while choking on their saliva, their heart’s beat slows to a deadly hum. With a last kick of blood, a trivial grasp at life, their last breath escapes in a slight “Puff”, then the steady high-pitched beep of a heart monitor pierces the silence in the room..and the young heart is officially dead*

*The voice comes back, the mother of the dead child*

Wake up, it’s time to go. You have to wake up! Come on! Seriously, we don’t have time! *sighs in frustration and impatience* Look, this isn’t funny. Get up, you’re gonna be late for schoo–*touches their limp hand, cold from and untimely death* H-honey? Honey? Are you okay? A-are you feeling fine? Are you breathing alright? Are you aliv–Oh..oh no..oh God..oh God..WHY?)

*Her voice, fading as her sobs overlap her past words*

Look, I know this is hard to understand, but it’s just apart of life..

People die everyday..

Bad things happen..

You just have to grow the fuck up..

And learn to accept it..