If im honest death scares me and freaks me out when it comes to not being a physical being anymore and the process you have to go through to be dead. But its the only option left for me i feel so miserable that people dont want to be near me, people dont even care or aknowledge my exsitance when i was happy let alone now. No one cares and im all alone with this miserable empty feeling and all i do is cry. My mum just says its my “weird phase” and totaly doesnt it which is ironic considering shes mentaly ill too…
Death seems like the happy ending to this terrible tail, but that happy ending sounds terrifying to…so how can i be sure it is, or will i ever get the courgae to take that leap? or am i destined to stay miserable and alone untill nature finaly decideds to give me a break if i cant do it myself
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I think you and your mom should both start family therapy to help you deal with your mental illnesses. Mental illness doesn’t have to be a death sentence if you take control of your life and actively deal with it. I think we’re all scared of death and the process of dying. It’s a scary thought. Mental illness does run in families, because there could be a genetic component. Please get help and don’t give up.
Please don’t do anything to yourself. You have no idea how much impact you have made in your life already. If you are dead you will never know. It may seem dark right now but please just hang on. No rash decisions.
My mum and i have both done therapy family and otherwise, it jsut doesnt work for us unfortunatly.
Well its not that i want to i jsut feel i have no option left like its the only thing that makes sense, I definatly dont think i have made an impact on anyone and if i have its just pain and what not
dont be scared of death its just like going to sleep