I literally have suicidal thoughts in my head all of the time. I can’t even cope anymore, I have no one now me and my boyfriend broke up:(  I thought he was going to help me get through everything but clearly not. It all started at the beginning of 2012, we started talking and I was so happy but then I  started to get  bullied. I then developed an eating disorder, anxiety disorder and depression. I started to cut myself and ended up having cuts all up my wrists and thighs. I would go home and cry for hours. During this time,  Josh, my boyfriend, would mess me around all the time. This went on for a year. When the bullying had stopped and josh had stopped messing me around, we got into a serious relationship and we were happy. He took away my blades and I started eating a lot more around him but now I’ve relapsed and I’m starving myself again.